repost from Jus Tri's personal blog, franksmycousin

i have the worst luck when it comes to you
i liked you first
you didn’t return
so i was happy to be your friend
but sometimes the way you look at me-
it still drives me insane
i’d really rather you not
look at me.
it doesn’t always hurt
sometimes i’m okay
sometimes you rarely cross my mind.
it will be months at a time

but you linger there, don’t you?
sleeping in my shadows
surprising me with yawns,
but i can’t banish you.
no spells seem to work.
in fact, you’re getting closer
and i’m tidally locked.

i’m afraid if i move
i’ll only move toward you
like i did before.
only look at me from across the room,
you can’t touch me then.
so, here i am:
i the moon
you the tide.
i reflect
you tease.
only gravity no chemistry.

i’d really rather you not
look at me
it still drives me insane-
but sometimes the way you look at me
makes me happy to be your friend.

i wish you luck elsewhere
since you did not have it with me.
may you shine rainbows in their life
instead of the clouds, like ghosts,
settling above me.
though i didn’t mind your shade.
i burn so easily.

i burn so easily
though i didn’t mind your shade
settling above me:
surprising me with yawns
sleeping in my shadows.
you linger there for months at a time
encompassing my world
like noah’s flood.
your eyes like the pitter-patter of rain on a tin roof.

i’d really rather you not
look at me
it still drives me insane-
but sometimes the way you look at me
makes me happy to be your friend.